If you would have asked me a year ago if I thought I would be here today, I would have told you that you were crazy. In May of 2009 I have received a devastating prognosis for my unborn son. He was born with a congenital diaphragmatic hernia (CDH). CDH occurs when the diaphragm does not fully form, which allows the stomach organs into the chest cavity. This severely hinders lung and heart development. Only fifty percent of babies born with CDH survive. Even with this diagnosis, I never once thought that I would not bring my son home.

In July of 2009 I delivered both of my unborn sons, Will and MJ. MJ was born with CDH, and his identical twin brother Will was born perfectly healthy. MJ fought for 35 days before passing away in my arms on August 29, 2009.

Now I am somehow living without MJ, raising Will, and trying to honor MJ's short life every day. How do I live without my son? I don't want to, but I am doing it. How do you raise a twinless twin? I have no idea, but I am doing. How do I honor MJ's life? This one is easy, I am part of an amazing organization called Project Sweet Peas. We make and deliver care packages to families that have a baby in the NICU. This blog gives me an outlet to cry and rejoice all at the same time. Thanks for coming along for the ride.