Saturday, April 10, 2010

Day Ten of 30 Days of Project Sweet Peas Giveaway!

As I have written about so many times before, one of the things that I do to remember and honor my son is donate care packages to families that have a baby in the NICU. I am able to do this through the help and support of Project Sweet Peas, which is a group of families just like mine, who have been in the NICU and know how hard it is. There are twelve local project spread out across the country that deliver these care packages. I am honored to be a part of this organization. And we need your help!!!

We have applied for a grant through the Pepsi Refresh Project, and have been selected as a finalist to win a $25,000 grant!! So here is how you can help us: vote once a day, every day for Project Sweet Peas to win. We need to be in the top ten at the end of the month to win. And to entice you to help us out and vote every day, I am doing a 30 Days of Project Sweet Peas giveaway! Everyday in the month of April I will be writing about the amazing things going on in Project Sweet Peas. And if you leave a comment that you voted each day, I will randomly pick one of these comments to win an Awareness Braceletof your choice! I make awareness bracelets of all colors, and I have a Pregnancy and Infant Loss Charm Bracelet featured right now.

**Please note that you must leave a comment each day to qualify for the giveaway for that day. **


Welcome to Day Ten of 30 Days of Project Sweet Peas! I am so excited to say that we have moved UP on spot into Number 16!! Thank you so much for your continued support and helping us by voting every day. Please KEEP IT UP! We only need to move up six more spots to get the $25,000!

Today I will be highlighting a project very close to my heart: Donny's Shining Light. Theresa is Donny's mom and she is truly a great friend, and I am so glad to know her. Donny's Shining Light donates bags to hospitals in the Chicagoland area. For more information, please contact theresa@projectsweetpeas.com. Here is Donny's Story . . .



The path that led me here began in August of 2005.  I found out I was pregnant!  The most exciting news!  Neither of us expected it yet both of us were thrilled.  I was no where close to being naive about the different things that could go wrong yet I was positive that this would be the one.  The planning and bonding for this little one began immediately.  I played music,  talked,  read, and sang to this little being growing inside of me.  I was full of joy and anticipation of becoming this baby's mommy.  Then February of 2006 rolled around and I had to schedule a level II ultrasound.  We were told our little precious boy, for unknown reasons, had a major birth defect called Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia or CDH.  That day my world fell apart.  The following weeks and days became a constant emotional roller coaster.  I wasn't due until May 20th.  We met with all the specialists that were required  within a couple of  weeks and then prayed I'd make it as long as possible.  By March 30th, my body could wait no longer.  I was in labor and not stopping.  Scared and teary eyed, I was prepped for a c-section.  At 11:32p.m. our little man came into the world without a sound. After several minutes,  I was allowed a 3 second glance at my dark headed, sleepy baby and then watched helplessly as he was whisked away to the NICU.  Unable to see him all night, I slept with a polaroid of him that a nurse took for me.  I was up every half hour.  When I finally did get to see my baby,  it was overwhelming seeing all the tubes and wires attached to him.  He was drugged, unresponsive to my touch or voice.  I wanted to fall to my knees screaming and crying.  I wanted to scoop my baby up in my arms.  I wanted him back inside me where he was happy and safe.  We spent an hour with him, caressing, whispering, praying, taking pictures, watching the nurses do their thing, wondering what was to happen next.  Then the doctor came by to talk to us.   Our baby's lungs wasn't responding to the extreme pressure the oscillator was pumping into them. If we allowed much more, his lungs could puncture.  Our choices:  Spend the little time we had with him now or say goodbye as they prepared him for a ride in the helicopter to another hospital that had an ECMO machine.  We chose the latter. It was the hardest thing up to that point to say goodbye, not knowing if I'd see my baby alive again.  I couldn't go with him.  His daddy met him and stayed with him.  I was released the next day.  Almost 24 hours later, I was reunited with my son.  And if I thought there were many tubes before, I was sadly mistaken.  There were even more now.  But at that point all I saw was my little boy.  I stood by his side for hours at time, only sitting for a minute here and there.  I couldn't leave him alone.  I held his hand constantly, stroked his dark, smooth hair, caressed his soft skin.  This was to become the routine for the following days ahead.  Every day the doctors and nurses said he was stable and that was good.  They backed up on the sedatives and he moved a toe, a foot, a finger, a hand...yes, it kept going until he heard my voice on day 6 and moved everything, opened an eye to find me and then tried moving his head.  That was a no-no while on ECMO.  So sadly we watched as they drugged our baby up again.  But he heard me!  And he KNEW who I was!  A few hours later, we received devastating news.  He developed a level 4 brain bleed.  ECMO had to be removed.  I asked that they not give up and do what they could.  We stood by for what seemed like eternity waiting for our little baby boy to respond in any way.  I watched the numbers on the screen go down steadily.  I asked the nurse why his chest wasn't moving, as the doctor tried to avoid the answer in fear of upsetting me, I'm sure.  She was honest.  His lungs just were too small, she said.  I knew then what we had to do.  I said to his daddy, I want to hold my baby.  And he told them to stop what they were doing.  I asked that all the tubes be taken off of him so I could SEE my baby's face.  We held him for about 45 minutes before he flew to heaven from his mommy's arms.  We cradled him, sang to him, told him how much we love him.  That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

  Because of my experience in the NICU,  helplessly watching my son,  I am offering my help to others now.  Whether they are faced with only days, or weeks, or months, being in the NICU is a stressful time.  You don't know what is to happen from day to day.  You surely aren't thinking of things you could use or things you need.  All you care about is that baby and being with him/her.  You are not thinking of the chances of your baby not making it and what you might want for him just in case.  You are not thinking of saving up on every memory because it may be all you will have for a lifetime.  I want to help other families who are faced with the uncertain future of being in the NICU with their baby.  I want to give them what they need, what they want....even if they don't know they need or want these things.  I want to offer my support.  I hope in doing this I can also spread my son's life to other's and that he can inspire others to keep fighting.

2 comments:

Theresa said...

Thank you Megan. I don't need to tell you how touched I am that you think that much of my baby angel. I'm in tears. I love you and your precious angels..here and in heaven! You are an amazing friend!

Michelle said...

I went and voted twice. I noticed that you have moved to 16th. That is awesome. I received my bracelet today. I love it!!! Thank you!